User blog comment:TenshiAkari12/So... yet another boo-hoo worthy blog post./@comment-53539-20140613172952/@comment-32500188-20140614010414

Thanks, Angel, I think I just might do that. :-)

I had a similar situation with my other grandmother, as she died when I was very young, too. Funny thing... both of my grandmothers were also the best of friends, so one thing for sure, I still was able to learn a lot about her not only through my parents/aunts/uncles, but by Grandma as well. It was like having an opportunity to be able to know her for the person she was from one of the people she was around the most.

That's really one thing I know I've been missing for this duration of her illness: the time we would spend with each other whenever I could make it over to see her, and talk about things either I was doing or what she used to do when she was younger... and then, if we had nothing to say, just sit and enjoy each other's company. If anything, I'm thankful for being able to do that, as not many people have the opportunity to meet any of their grandparents at all. And being able to learn from her life in general has helped to shape me into what I am today.

Also, I've been doing a lot to keep my spirits up while remembering her as well. I've been looking at pictures most of the day, and remembering the best moments of being with her. And all of the gifts I found again that she made and bought me over the years... I've got to get all of them together and continue to keep them in tact, since they're definitely one of a kind. :-D

When it comes to the family situation, though, it's like you hear and learn a whole lot of things that folks have said and done for or against each other when the reminiscing starts... or in my family's case, the arguments. So much so that one begins to wonder how the heck they were able to make it as far as they did without trying to take each other out by now. Yet, on the other side of my family (with my other grandmother that I can't really remember), while they also have their crazy share of stories, they can look back and actually laugh at what once made them so miffed with each other. Sometimes I just wish it were just that simple for everyone to be like that... XD