User blog comment:Serza5/I suppose I should say sorry/@comment-32500188-20140528031046

I'll be honest, I was about to respond to your previous blog post a while ago, but had to leave for practice before I could finish typing it up... I'm still sad you had thoughts of leaving and that you're feeling this way. (A;)

I know that feeling of being test-stressed and on edge too well, and just thinking about all of that again makes me shudder. At one point in college, I literally had a nervous breakdown, because classes were absolutely worsesome with piling on assignments left and right, my sax professor was putting on the pressure with trying to get my senior recital repertoire in playing condition, and I having to worry about keeping a saxophone section up to standard as a section leader when no one wanted to take things seriously. It got to the point where I had to take almost a year off from school just to get myself back together, which cost me dearly in terms of funding for the next few terms I went back for.

Sometimes, you just have to find a way of release... now don't get me wrong, the last thing I would suggest is for you to take off from school like I did (that is if this isn't your last semester already), but you should consider giving yourself at least a half hour of meditation when you start feeling the urge to explode in some way. Get somewhere as quiet as possible, close your eyes and focus on deep, slow breathing. (No sleeping, just breathing.) Doing this helped refresh myself whenever I started feeling too pressured about something after I went back to finish up.

I really do hope you feel better, Serza. We all have our moments, too, y'know, so you're not the only one who has that habit. ;-)