User blog:Aihavenoideawhatsoever/So i guess i should've said this earlier but....

'I don't doubt that there might be users that suspected this or outright know what i'm about to say and i'm sorry if i'm making it sound dramatic but it is imporatant to me okay! It's already cold and my anxiety is only maikng me tremble more.' (I'll be talking on third person for a while so i apologise if the whole thing sounds cringy or something along the line)

Um, hello

So i've been here for a while and i guess i hid something that's sort of important but not really. The thing is i'm worried it might be breaking the wiki's rules tho i've never read them to know....(yeah sorry about that, haha... it's really only because i didn't see a link to them anywhere)

So i go by Ai or Aaaaaiiiiiiii here but i also happen to be User:Ihavenoideawhatsoever who disabled her account around July-August because she wanted to focus on her studies and thought that disabling her account from a site that she spends a bit too much time on would help her. And she was sort of correct.

But MM2018 said a big no to me trying to have a better life and i had to come back to take care of the page. I tried to edit the page as an anonymous user so that when i finish i could go back to trying to study but you can't upload pictures without an account so that plan went down the drain fast...

Anyways, the real reason i'm bringing this up is because me having a second account (*sarcasm*lololololololol iactuallyhavethree,thesecondonewasdiabledeitherbecauseofaglitch'causeitrieddisablingthefirstAiaccounttoobutgaveuponitlater,orididsomethingandFANDOMdisableditdespitethefactthattheynevertoldmeaboutitwouldn'tbethefirsttimesomeonetakesactionswithouttellingmebutwhocares lolololoolo0oolo *sarcasm*) might be breaking the rules.... Like Ai is a sockpuppet-or whatever it's called- of Ihavenoideawhatsoever (It's why the user name is "Ai" it's the I from "Ihavenoideawhatsoever", like i said in my user page, it has nothing to do with the Japanese word for "love", if anyone was wondering).

Now, if you want to block me then i won't blame you but... i.... don't want to leave this wiki anytime soon (tho i always say i will because i want a life and i spend too much time here just looking at other's edits...) and i don't think i'm doing something bad or holding the wiki's progress back. I just did something i regret and i had no other way of coming back. But it might make the recent troll and Amanda mad because, like them, i made a different account from the first one and pretended i was someone else.

That being said, if you do want to block/ban me please tell me before doing so, i want to know before it happens because this place is more imporant to me than i thought it was (and i would looove it if you could do it after i finish this sweet heart right here. I swear i'll only come to the wiki just to edit that and when i finish i'll send a messege to an admin's talk page or on Discord but i think this is asking for too much). Also feel free to remove me from Discord if you think you have to(i don't know if it's called a ban, a block, or something else this is my first time actually using discord).

I apologise if i broke the rules and i'm sorry if i caused confusion. If anyone is wondering, no, i don't thing i fooled anyone, tho i thought i was hiding for a while(i was afraid i broke the rules and in return afraid of saying who i was). I never wanted to fool anyone. I just wanted to help the wiki but had no way of doing so with my first account.

Again, sorry if this was a bit too dramatic or cringy, and sorry if i broke the rules. (Also, i'm really sorry for getting in arguments with Zach, and Zach if you're reading this check your talk page if you haven't)

And if you're wondering why now, well, it's late here and it's cold and i have a test tommorow that i need to study for and i haven't even opened the book yet and it's hystory and that's not good, thankfully it's for my cram school so not a really big deal but still, so, yeah everything just suck a bit right now.

(And sorry for the bad grammar and spelling)