User blog:MeerkatQueen/An apology

I would like to apologize for my inactivity lately. I usually don't like to talk about my personal life on the internet but it's been getting out of hand and I feel like I owe everyone an explanation. Recently my chronic pain has been getting alot worse and it has been getting incredibly hard to function and even think. I have had to go home from work early and/ or just call out alltogether because it has been getting so bad. I can't help but wonder if I'm even going to be able to keep my job or worse. And if I do get fired I am absolutely certain that because of my visible disabilities, tourettes tic, and inability to get a further education I can't help but fear that I may never be able to get another job again. There is one medication that has been helping; the one that was prescribed to me to help deal with the pain from my surgery, but the medication is known to be highly addictive and I am extremely paranoid about taking it and have been avoiding it as much as possible but I often still have to take it bout once a day. I did see my doctor today, and we're trying to figure this out but with my luck I don't even know if it is possible anymore. All of this has been putting alot of stress on me and have even been having a few breakdowns and quite frankly, I don't know how much more of this I can even take.

So I'm going to be taking (or I guess continuing, but now it's formally announced) a semi-hiatus. I will still try my best to finish any existing projects, and check social media and the wiki from time to time but right now I just can't handle it.

I'm sorry.