User blog:Serza5/Now that's a pondering; my future.

Me and this wiki has hardly ever had a good relationship to say the least, as if not made obvious by some of my previous blog posts.

Basically I was hoping that 2 weeks of Turkey would drive me away from this place enough as a form of haitus but of course I didn't do that which I am annoyed at myself for as it only proves that haitus and me don't mix at all, or even flat out leaving for that matter.

Let's ask myself "Do I want to stay here?". If it was just for the wiki i'd say yes however it is the community that still, and continues to get to me. I don't like speaking ill-ly of people as that sort of thing is simply not me, and I will continue to be anonymous about it but there are people here, as said before, I simply do not want to associate with as we've had some bad conflicts with.

Which sounds selfish because this is but a mere handful but at this point, the pondering is "Is it worth it?". Back then it would've been a definite no (If it wasn't for usual haitus hesitation), but now it's more of I don't know what to do.

Which makes it more frustating that all i'll get here is "Do what you think is best for you" because, while it's appreciated, it's not helping me decide. But bah this is where I close.

Only other thing I have to say is that i'll be on the plane back to Scotland tomorrow.