User blog comment:Ensoka/I don't know why I'm still here/@comment-6433273-20150823192137/@comment-26851466-20150823192752

You're really sweet about it, and I thank you for it. But I'm pretty certain the last thing Damesuke wants is to help. They just want me gone, because I'm just some kid who keeps making mistakes. If I approach in a civil manner, or I apologize, it's ignored. If I take the blame and promise to improve, it's ignored. If I point something out, or have proof something is not my fault, it's still my fault because I brought a page over or not.

I am always in the wrong, and all of my attempts to improve are ignored. I created a page all by myself, in Japanese. Asked Damesuke to look over it, and I was ignored. They just want me gone, they've made that fantastically clear. They don't want me to improve, they just don't want me here.

It's a really frustrating feeling. I don't think having Korean knowledge is enough to stick around, anyway. All the important Korean songs I've already done, and there's someone a step ahead of me at all times when in regards to most Korean news.

I'm either moving too fast or too slow, I don't have a middle ground and that's what's annoying them and other people, I think.