わたしのアール (Watashi no R)

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Background[]

"Watashi no R" is an original song by Kurage-P featuring Hatsune Miku, made in celebration of her 8th birthday. It is featured as the opening track to the album Watashi no Miseinen Kansoku. The song itself has a bit of a sequel on the same album, the title track "Watashi no Miseinen Kansoku", which partly shows the events of the song from the perspective of "Kansoku's" protagonist.

The song is about a girl trying to talk herself out of the various reasons why she wants to commit suicide. Everyday, she goes to the rooftop, but always sees someone trying to commit suicide. On the day she wants to commit suicide, she is all alone.

Even though Kurage-P does not offer the official meaning of "R", he states that the correct answer comes in the Japanese comments on the Niconico upload. Two common words are "Reason" and "Rooftop". It is most likely the former.

This song has entered the Hall of Legend.

Succeeding versions[]

Wada Takeaki's Cover

Featuring	Wada Takeaki (Kurage-P)
Producers	yuno (illust)
Categories	Human Cover; Self-cover
Description	In celebration of Miku's original version 10 million views achievement, Wada released a self-cover of the song.

Lyrics[]

Japanese (日本語歌詞)	Romaji (ローマ字)
わたし、屋上で靴を脱ぎかけた時に	watashi, okujou de kutsu o nugikaketa toki ni
三つ編みの先客に、声をかけてしまった。	mitsuami no senkyaku ni, koe o kakete shimatta.
「ねえ、やめなよ」	“nee, yamena yo”

口をついて出ただけ。	kuchi o tsuite deta dake.
ホントはどうでもよかった。	honto wa dou demo yokatta.
先を越されるのが、なんとなく癪だった。	saki o kosareru no ga, nantonaku shaku datta.
三つ編みの子は、語る。	mitsuami no ko wa, kataru.
どっかで聞いたようなこと	dokka de kiita youna koto
「運命の人だった。	“unmei no hito datta.
どうしても愛されたかった」	doushitemo aisaretakatta”

ふざけんな！そんなことくらいで	fuzakenna! sonna koto kurai de
わたしの先を越そうだなんて！	watashi no saki o kosou da nante!
欲しいものが手に入らないなんて	hoshii mono ga te ni hairanai nante
奪われたことすらないくせに！	ubawareta koto sura nai kuseni!
「話したら楽になった」って	“hanashitara raku ni natta” tte
三つ編みの子は、消えてった。	mitsuami no ko wa, kietetta.

さぁ、今日こそはと靴を	saa, kyou koso wa to kutsu o
脱ぎかけたらそこに	nugikaketara soko ni
背の低い女の子	se no hikui onna no ko
また声をかけてしまった。	mata koe o kakete shimatta.
背の低い子は、語る。クラスでの孤独を	se no hikui ko wa, kataru. kurasu de no kodoku o
「無視されて、奪われて、	“mushi sarete, ubawarete,
居場所がないんだ」って	ibasho ga nain da” tte

ふざけんな！そんなことくらいで	fuzakenna! sonna koto kurai de
私の先を越そうだなんて！	watashi no saki o kosou da nante!
それでも、うちでは愛されて	soredemo, uchi de wa aisarete
あたたかいごはんもあるんでしょ？	atatakai gohan mo arun desho?
「おなかがすいた」と泣いて	“onaka ga suita” to naite
背の低い子は、消えてった。	se no hikui ko wa, kietetta.

そうやって、何人かに声をかけて	souyatte, nanninka ni koe o kakete
追い返して	oikaeshite
わたし自身の痛みは誰にも言えないまま	watashi jishin no itami wa darenimo ienai mama

初めて見つけたんだ。	hajimete mitsuketan da.
似たような悩みの子	nita youna nayami no ko
何人目かにあったんだ	nanninmeka ni attan da
黄色いカーディガンの子	kiiroi kaadigan no ko
「うちに帰るたびに、増え続ける痣を	“uchi ni kaeru tabi ni, fuetsuzukeru aza o
消し去ってしまうため	keshisatte shimau tame
ここに来たの」と言った。	koko ni kita no” to itta.

口をついて出ただけ。	kuchi o tsuite deta dake.
ホントはどうでもよかった。	honto wa doudemo yokatta.
思ってもいないこと	omotte mo inai koto
でも、声をかけてしまった。	demo, koe o kakete shimatta.
「ねぇ、やめてよ」	“nee, yamete yo”

ああ、どうしよう	aa, doushiyou
この子は止められない	kono ko wa tomerarenai
わたしには止める資格が無い。	watashi ni wa tomeru shikaku ga nai.
それでも、ここからは消えてよ。	soredemo, koko kara wa kiete yo.
君を見ていると苦しいんだ。	kimi o mite iru to kurushiin da.
「じゃあ今日はやめておくよ」って	“jaa kyou wa yamete oku yo” tte
目を伏せたまま消えてった。	me o fuseta mama kietetta.

今日こそは、誰もいない。	kyou koso wa, daremo inai.
わたしひとりだけ	watashi hitori dake
誰にも邪魔されない	darenimo jama sarenai
邪魔してはくれない。	jama shite wa kurenai.
カーディガンは脱いで	kaadigan wa nuide
三つ編みをほどいて	mitsuami o hodoite
背の低いわたしは	se no hikui watashi wa
今から飛びます。	ima kara tobimasu.

Derivatives[]

Kalfina-P's English Cover ft. Hatsune Miku

Featuring	Hatsune Miku
Producers	Kalfina-P (mix), rachie (English lyrics adaption), Garico (pv)
Categories	VOCALOID cover; Alternative Language

KneeLow's Portugues Cover ft. Hatsune Miku

Featuring	Hatsune Miku
Producers	KneeLow
Categories	VOCALOID cover; Alternative Language

mec's English Cover ft. Fukase

Featuring	Fukase ft. Rin, Len, and Oliver
Producers	mec (art, mix), rachie (lyrics)
Categories	VOCALOID cover; Alternative Language

autumnwhitecat's Indonesian Cover ft. Fukase

Featuring	Fukase
Producers	Han Duq (Indonesian lyrics adaption), autumnwhitecat (mix, art)
Categories	VOCALOID cover; Alternative Language

Lucio Neru's Cover ft. Otomachi Una

Featuring	Otomachi Una
Producers	Lucio Neru (mix, art)
Categories	VOCALOID cover

Aosugi's Cover ft. Nekomura Iroha

Featuring	Nekomura Iroha
Producers	Aosugi (mix, tuning), Cyrin (video), Yossy (piano arrange)
Categories	VOCALOID Cover; Arrangement

Arum Bunny's Cover ft. Meika Hime

Featuring	Meika Hime
Producers	half a head (ust), Arum Bunny (edit), Garico (pv)
Categories	VOCALOID Cover

LuvP's Cover ft. Kasane Teto

Featuring	Kasane Teto
Producers	LuvP
Categories	UTAU cover; Synthesizer V cover

shiori's Cover ft. Yamine Renri

Featuring	Yamine Renri
Producers	shiori
Categories	UTAU cover

Casita Override's Cover ft. Kaiserine Sympherianne

Featuring	Kaiserine Sympherianne
Producers	Casita Override
Categories	UTAU cover

tobakari's Cover ft. Kafu

Featuring	KAFU
Producers	tobakari
Categories	CeVIO AI Cover

hell star nicole's English Cover ft. Eleanor Forte

Featuring	Eleanor Forte
Producers	rachie (lyrics), hell star nicole (mix), Miyuki (pv)
Categories	Synthesizer V Cover

KneeLow's Portugues Cover ft. Koharu Rikka

Featuring	Koharu Rikka AI Lite
Producers	KneeLow
Categories	Synthesizer V Cover; Alternative Language

Ado's Cover

Featuring	Ado
Producers	Ado (mix, encoding)
Categories	Human cover

Kurokumo's Cover

Featuring	Kurokumo
Producers	Zips (mix)
Categories	Human cover
Description	This cover has entered the Hall of Legend on Niconico, and exceeded 6 million views on YouTube.

Ray's Cover

Featuring	Ray
Producers	GPSS (mix)
Categories	Human cover

Mashiro's Cover

Featuring	Mashiro
Producers	△○□× (Art), KaiseiP (Mix)
Categories	Human cover; Fanmade PV
Description	This cover is re-uploaded in August, 2022. Original upload was in October, 2021.

Kohana Lam's Cover

Featuring	Kohana Lam
Producers	Daifuku Mix (mix), Kariborumeru (illust, video)
Categories	Human cover; Fanmade PV

Kohana Lam's Cover -Piano Arrange Ver.-

Featuring	Kohana Lam
Producers	ena (Piano arrange), rig (Mix)
Categories	Human cover; Arrangement
Description	This cover has exceeded 3 million views on YouTube. This cover is featured in the extended play Kanjou o Takusan Komete.

Kanade Izuru's Cover

Featuring	Kanade Izuru
Producers	Aspara (illustration), TomoboP (mix), HOLOSTARS (movie)
Categories	Human cover; Fanmade PV

Mary's Cover

Featuring	Mary
Producers	SILVANA (mix)
Categories	Human cover

Megatera Zero's Cover

Featuring	Megatera Zero
Producers	Megatera Zero (mix), Yuta (encoding)
Categories	Human cover

rachie's English Cover

Featuring	rachie
Producers	rachie (English lyrics adaption), Leela (art), crashtest (mix)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language; Fanmade PV
Description	This cover has exceeded 7 million views on YouTube and 4.5 million plays on SoundCloud.

Hikaru Station's English Cover

Featuring	Hikaru Station (aka. Bao)
Producers	rachie (English lyrics adaption), Garico (PV), Aruvn (mix)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language
Description	This cover has exceeded 20 million views on YouTube and 1 million plays on SoundCloud.

Annapantsu's English Cover ft. Hikaru Station & rachie

Featuring	Annapantsu ft. Hikaru Station and rachie
Producers	rachie (lyrics), Jeysun (instrumental), Rerebaka_tan (art), PalmMute (mix), Coda (video)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language
Description	This cover has exceeded 6 million views on YouTube.

Lollia's English Cover

Featuring	Lollia
Producers	rachie (lyrics), Sleeping Forest (arrangement)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Jordan Sweeto's English Cover

Featuring	Jordan Sweeto
Producers	rachie (lyrics), Hanimitsu (art)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Aruvn's English Cover

Featuring	Aruvn
Producers	rachie (lyrics), Aruvn (mix), Garico (PV)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Kuraiinu's English Cover

Featuring	Kuraiinu
Producers	rachie (lyrics)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Amelie Nugget's English Cover

Featuring	Amelie Nugget
Producers	rachie (lyrics), Saccharinne (instrumental)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language; Arrangement

Will Stetson's English Cover

Featuring	Will Stetson
Producers	rachie (lyrics), KiAme (arrange), niu arx (mix), carrot113 (MV), Binfy (subs)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language; Arrangement; Fanmade PV

Lin's Spanish Cover

Featuring	Lin
Producers	Luna Amatista (Spanish lyrics adaption), Lin (art)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language
Description	This cover has exceeded 1 million views on YouTube.

Alena Dear Campbell's Thai Cover

Featuring	Alena Dear Campbell
Producers	Alena Dear Campbell (Thai lyrics adaption)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

BEARISS's Thai Cover

Featuring	BEARISS
Producers	Alena Dear Campbell (lyrics), BEARISS (instrumental), Tsubaki (mix)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language; Arrangement

gicchi's Indonesian Cover

Featuring	gicchi
Producers	Han Duq (Indonesian lyrics adaption), Garico (PV)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Poucet's French Cover

Featuring	Poucet
Producers	Ayumi (French lyrics adaption)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language
Description	This cover has exceeded 1.5 million views on YouTube.

Ryoki's Russian Cover

Featuring	Ryoki
Producers	Kino Subs (Russian lyrics adaption)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Selphius's German Cover

Featuring	Selphius
Producers	Selphius (German lyrics adaption), crouka (Music), Kazu (Mix), Caninus (Art), Bakyaan (Video)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Hekiri's Polish Cover

Featuring	Hekiri (Kirishe), Ytna
Producers	Kirishe (Polish lyrics adaption), Kazu (Mix)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Miyo's Polish Cover

Featuring	Miyo
Producers	Kirishe (Lyrics)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Cherrybellat's Korean Cover

Featuring	Cherrybellat
Producers	Cherrybellat (video, edit, subtitle), Marcato (recording, mix)
Categories	Human cover; Alternative Language

Saccharinne's Music Box Arrange

Producers	Saccharinne
Categories	Arrangement
Description	This arrangement has exceeded 1.5 million views on YouTube.

R3's Music Box Arrange

Producers	R3 Music Box
Categories	Arrangement

Yealt's Music Box Arrange

Producers	Yealt
Categories	Arrangement

dinhosaurr's Piano Cover

Producers	dinhosaurr
Categories	Arrangement

My Spring Lullaby's Kalimba Cover

Producers	My Spring Lullaby
Categories	Arrangement

Garico's PV

Featuring	Hatsune Miku
Producers	Garico
Categories	Fanmade PV

Cyrin's PV

Featuring	Hatsune Miku
Producers	Cyrin
Categories	Fanmade PV

My R Animatic

Featuring	rachie
Producers	Wolfychu
Categories	Fanmade PV
Description	This PV has exceeded 3 million views on YouTube.

Azula's R

Featuring	Lollia
Producers	Emirichu
Categories	Fanmade PV
Description	This PV has exceeded 4 million views on YouTube.

External links[]

Unofficial[]

VOCALOID Lyrics Wiki
Hazuki no Yume - Lyrics Source