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Image of "Calalini"
Song title
  • "Calalini"
Published March 03, 2012, with 3,500+ Niconico views and 626,600+ YouTube views
Featuring
Producers
  • Crusher (music, lyrics, illust)
  • Abstract Eclipse (video, instrumental, mix)
Links

BackgroundEdit

"Calalini" is a song featuring Kaai Yuki by Crusher. The original version was based on the real life case about Jani Schofield who, as a young girl, was misdiagnosed with childhood-onset schizophrenia. Her parents, Susan and Michael Schofield, claimed that Jani had over 200 hallucinations which come from her hallucinated island "Calalini". This song was made to show awareness of childhood onset schizophrenia.

After Jani's parents discovered the song in early March 2013, they contacted the producer and collaborated with her to create a line of tank tops, T-shirts and sweaters to raise money for the foundation. The line, at Jani's request, features Crusher's interpretation of 24 Hours (one of Jani's hallucinations).

In March 2017 the father of Jani was quoted to a tumblr post stating that he did not find the song insulting nor glamorizing. Although there were some inaccuracies about how the hallucinations were presented.[1]

In August 2017 the producer stated that there would be a rewrite of the song using Kaai Yuki V4 as they hated the lyrics of the original and remembered that Planty-P (a controversial POCALOID user) did the mixing for the original.[2] This version is found on the "CONCIENTIA" album.

In 2019, it was revealed that Jani Schofield was not schizophrenic and that her symptoms were manufactured, induced and encouraged by her parents, Susan and Michael, who would doctor shop for medication with which to drug their daughter with. Jani no longer takes medication and acknowledges that she is not schizophrenic. Unfortunately, due to Michael and Susan's abuse and because she was heavily medicated for most of her life, Jani was emotionally and developmentally stunted. Jani now lives in a group home for developmentally delayed girls, where she is receiving an education and appropriate care.

The original lyrics contain mental illness themes and should be viewed at your own risk.

Succeeding versionsEdit

Remastered ver.
Crusher-P - CONCIENTIA
Featuring
Producers
Crusher
Categories Succeeding versions; remastered
Description
This version is found on the "CONCIENTIA" album.

LyricsEdit

On the border of your world and mine
Is a prominent universe called Calalini
It's my island of dark paradise
So not every day is a vacation for me

Ah, I don't understand four hundred
Why do these people have to die?
Ah, I don't understand Wednesday...
Why do you hurt me? What have I done?

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are tearing me apart inside.
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monsters that eat me alive

Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my Paradise Lost?
My nightmare in heaven?
Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my home at loss?
My heart feels so heavy.
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini,
Can someone come and please save me?


On the border of insanity,
I can't make the screaming stop I have to keep scratching.
It's my world of constant agony.
It's my personal, very real hell to me.

Ah, I don't understand, Sycamore...
Why do these people have to cry?
Ah, I don't understand, 24 hours...
Why am I the only one who sees?

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are tearing me apart inside.
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monsters that eat me alive.

Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my Paradise Lost?
My nightmare in heaven?
Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my home at a lost?
My heart feels so heavy.
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini,
Can someone please come and save me?


It's safe to say that I'm never alone,
I can't be alone.
They won't leave me alone,
Alone, alone, alone, alone, alone, alone

PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!


I don't know any place I can hide,
From the voices that are tearing me apart inside.
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monsters that eat me alive

Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my Paradise Lost?
My nightmare in heaven?
Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my home at a loss?
My heart feels so heavy.

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are tearing me apart inside.
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monsters that eat me alive

Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my Paradise Lost?
My nightmare in heaven?
Why, oh why, does Calalini have to be my home at a loss?
My heart feels so heavy.

Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,

Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, Cala Cala Calalini,

Source: Musixmatch

On the border of your world and mine
Is a nation unseen to the outsider's eye
"Look, don't touch" is the anthem they cry
As they look down in pity, safe from the outside

Everybody outside is living
Having a good time, the world goes round
Everybody outside is laughing
Having a great time, here while I drown

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are screaming at me to survive
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monster eating me alive

Why oh why, did understanding calalini take me so long?
(Let's try next time)
My oh my, look how the meaning of my words were so wrong
(To read between the lines)


Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini


Somewhere weaved in these meaningless words
(The monster that devours me?)
Was a painting intended to match all the blurs
(Are you worried? Do you care?)
Smile wide so the people can see
(MBPS, living in fear)
Just how beautifully tragic this life is for me

Everybody outside is living
(Everyone is living)
Having a good time, the world goes round
Everybody outside is laughing
(Everyone is laughing)
Having a great time, here while I drown

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are screaming at me to survive
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monster eating me alive

Why oh why, did understanding calalini take me so long?
(Why, why does calalini)
(Did you catch that?)
My oh my, look how the meaning of my words were so wrong
(If not, let's go back)


Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini


It's safe to say that I'm never alone,
I can't be alone.
They won't leave me alone,
Alone, alone, alone, alone, alone, alone
Please leave me alone!

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are screaming at me to survive
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monster eating me alive

Why oh why, did understanding calalini take me so long?
(Did you catch that?)
My oh my, look how the meaning of my words were so wrong
(If not, let's go back)

I don't know any place I can hide
From the voices that are screaming at me to survive
Why do these demons invade my mind?
I can't escape from the monster eating me alive

Why oh why, did understanding calalini take me so long?
(Did you catch that?)
My oh my, look how the meaning of my words were so wrong
(If not, let's go back)


Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,


Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini,
Calalini, Calalini, cala cala Calalini

Other media appearancesEdit

DiscographyEdit

This song was featured in the following albums:

DerivativesEdit

byBibo's cover ft. LEON
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[yt]
Translation French ver.
Featuring
Producers
byBibo (MIDI edit, mixing, illust, video), Crusher (VSQ)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
Graceinliife's cover ft. LEON
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[yt]
Featuring
Producers
Graceinliife (tuning)
Categories VOCALOID Cover
SuruatCisum's cover ft. Hatsune Miku
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[yt]
Featuring
Hatsune Miku V3 English
Producers
SuruatCisum (tuning), Crusher (VSQx)
Categories VOCALOID Cover
Deco's cover ft. Kagamine Rin
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[yt]
Translation Japanese ver.
Featuring
Producers
Deco (Japanese lyrics, VSQ edit, tuning)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
ShionNezumi's cover ft. Kaai Yuki
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[yt]
Translation Español ver.
Featuring
Producers
ShionNezumi (tuning, Spanish lyrics), utaukappasensei2 (WAVs)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
Tsume-Kuma's cover ft. Nekomura Iroha
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[yt]
Translation Japanese ver.
Featuring
Producers
Tsume-Kuma (tuning), Deco (VSQx edit, Japanese lyrics)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
burukiki's cover ft. CUL
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[yt]
Featuring
Producers
burukiki (tuning), Crusher (VSQx)
Categories VOCALOID Cover
XxHakumixX's cover ft. IA
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[yt]
Translation Japanese ver.
Featuring
Producers
XxHakumixX (tuning), Deco (VSQx edit, Japanese lyrics)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
Namallow's cover ft. YANHE
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[yt]
Translation Chinese ver.
Featuring
Producers
Namallow (tuning), KyuuketsuKomorine (Chinese lyrics, VSQx edit), Crusher (VSQx)
Categories VOCALOID Cover; Alternative Language
Maniluz Sketches's cover ft. Sasara
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[yt]
Translation Japanese ver.
Featuring
Producers
Maniluz Sketches (tuning)
Categories CeVIO Cover; Alternative Language

Calalini MANGA Remix
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[yt][sc]
Featuring
Kaai Yuki
Producers
JOSHUA M4N6A
Categories Remix
The Dark Island (Calalini Remix 2013)
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[yt][→]
Featuring
Kaai Yuki
Producers
Deville (arrangement)
Categories Remix

CRT✰'s Live action
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[yt]
Featuring
Kaai Yuki
Producers
CRT✰
Categories Live Action

GalleryEdit

ReferencesEdit

  1. https://diirtybirds.tumblr.com/post/158680168366/
  2. https://twitter.com/CCrusherP/status/901861182012882951

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