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  • "Delusion Girl"
Published September 13, 2017, with 487,200+ Niconico views
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"Delusion Girl" featuring Hatsune Miku is the VOCALOID cover of Touyu's original human version featured on his CD Live La Libera (ライブラリベラ).

The song tells the tragic story of a man who, as an everyman in society, has been living a hopeless and hypocritical life "killing" his true self for the sake of livelihood.

Chronically suffering from depression (he has been taking pills as shown in the MV) due to social pressures, the man develops a self-loathing mentality, and the cords in the train symbolize his self-destructive tendency. On his daily commute by subway in the morning as a salaryman, he sees a little girl falling out the warning line due to the rushing crowd. He jumps out the warning line, risking his life just to save the girl and thus a selfless "hero", as a way of self-vindication and for the recognition of society (imagined growing retweets and likes on Twitter is shown in this scene)––all but a wishful delusion to be dismissed during rush hour.

One day, the man discovers that the cat whom he has been given milk to every day has been run over by a car, dead. Upon nearly crying, he realizes that he, a hypocrite caused by the harsh reality, who is unable to offer genuine emotions and support to others––his friend who was bullied, this cat, his family that he neglected, and his girlfriend who hanged herself––is no different from the lifeless corpse lying before him. Blaming everything from his surroundings on himself, his world falls further apart, and his mental state worsens to the extreme, as symbolized by the increased cracks in the visuals.

Once again, on the subway platform, he sees the little girl tripping out the warning line. This time, he thinks, it's happening in reality and not a delusion. Finally, he is able to save someone. Jumping out the warning line, risking his life just to save the girl, he becomes the "hero" he aspires to be. While in the air, he sees the little girl, with vacant eyes, smiling, much to his joy. It is then that he realizes that all of it was once again a delusion and that in reality, he stepped out the platform to be hit by the oncoming train. And such a scene is to others nothing but an incident to be dismissed during rush hour. The event is reported lightly as an incident in the subway announcement in the end.

The little girl whom the man made up was in fact based off of a girl he sees daily in the rushing crowd, who actually witnessed his act of suicide from the crowd and was traumatized by it.

This song has entered the Hall of Fame.

LyricsEdit

Japanese (日本語歌詞) Romaji (ローマ字)
日々を淡々と生きてきた hibi o tantan to ikite kita
人に言えないような嘘もついてきた hito ni ienai you na uso mo tsuite kita
仮面に化粧をして笑うよ kamen ni keshou o shite warau yo
生きる為に今日も自分を殺すんだ ikiru tame ni kyou mo jibun o korosunda

機械声が鳴り響くホーム kikaigoe ga narihibiku hoomu
我先に並ぶ 人の波にのまれ waresaki ni narabu hito no nami ni nomare
白線の外側へ小さな女の子が落ちていった hakusen no sotogawa e chiisana onna no ko ga ochite itta

目にも留まらぬ速さで走る me ni mo tomaranu hayasa de hashiru
午前8時迎えて荒ぶる 地下鉄日比谷線 gozen hachiji mukaete araburu chikatetsu hibiyasen

飛び出し注意 振り払って 白線を超えた tobidashi chuui furi haratte hakusen o koeta
たかが他人の命を この手で救うために takaga tanin no inochi o kono te de sukuu tame ni
自らの命すら顧みないヒーロー mizukara no inochi sura kaeri minai hiiroo
そんな妄想も ラッシュアワーに かき消えて行く sonna mousou mo rasshuawaa ni kakikiete iku

毎日ミルクをあげていた mainichi miruku o agete ita
猫が車に轢かれ死んでいた neko ga kuruma ni hikare shinde ita
別に悲しくなんてなかった betsu ni kanashiku nante nakatta
だけど涙が溢れそうになる dakedo namida ga afuresou ni naru

所詮こんなもの ただの偽善だ shosen konna mo no tada no gizen da
この亡骸と僕は一体何が違うのだろう kono nakigara to boku wa ittai nani ga chigau no darou

見て見ぬフリをして ずっと生きてきた mite minu furi o shite zutto ikite kita
助けを請う友達や猫、家族や恋人でも tasuke o kou tomodachi ya neko, kazoku ya koibito demo
仕方ないよ それが世の中なんだって shikatanai yo sore ga yo no naka nan datte
全て諦めてきたんだ でも、もう subete akiramete kitanda demo, mou

機械声が鳴り響くホーム kikaigoe ga narihibiku hoomu
我先に並ぶ 人の波にのまれて waresaki ni narabu hito no nami ni nomarete
白線の外側へ小さな少女が落ちていった hakusen no sotogawa e chiisana shoujo ga ochite itta

これは現実だ 妄想じゃない kore wa genjitsu da mousou ja nai
午前8時迎えて荒ぶる 地下鉄日比谷線 gozen hachiji mukaete araburu chikatetsu hibiyasen

飛び出し注意 振り払って 白線を超えた tobidashi chuui furiharatte hakusen o koeta
たかが他人の命を この手で救うために takaga tanin no inochi o kono te de sukuu tame ni
自らの命すら顧みないヒーロー mizukara no inochi sura kaeri minai hiiroo
宙に浮いた瞳で 少女が笑う顔を見る sora ni uita hitomi de shoujo ga warau kao o miru
そんな現実も ラッシュアワーに かき消えて行く sonna genjitsu mo rasshuawaa ni kakikiete iku

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